SHOULD I TELL HIM THAT HE IS NOT THE FATHER OF OUR FOUR CHILDREN

 

I am a 35 years old mother of four children   I am from Abia State married to a handsome, loving and caring man from Delta State. When i was getting married 15 years ago, If a soothsayer had predicted that i would one day cheat on my husband, i would have told him to go and examine his head at the psychiatric hospital, because my husband had every qualities every  woman would need in her dream man. Nothing, absolutely nothing lacking in him that would drive me to another man's bed. 

The first seven years of our marriage was blissful. My inlaws were as well as loving and caring as my husband. They showered  all the hospitality on me that I considered myself the luckiest wife on earth. 

All these however changed seven years after. They became hostile to me, because of my inability to conceive for my husband. They wanted him to divorce me and marry a woman who would bear children for him. I was devastated by these development that i started running from pillar to post, seeking for solution to my childlessness. I did all that the Pastors, Alfas and Native Doctors,  I consulted asked me to do. I drank all the concortions, including my urine, the native doctors asked me to drink, but nothing came out of it. 

I visited the best hospitals and did all the tests they recommended. They did not find anything wrong with me. They adviced that my husband should also subject himself to lab test to comfirm whose fault the problem of our childlessnes was. And when i told him what the doctors said, I was met with the question "are you insinuating that the problem of your childlessness is from me?" 

When all efforts to get pregnant failed and my husband refused to subject himself to  lab test, i decided to do what I never did or thought of  since we got  married, I yielded my body to another man. I did it just to confirm whose fault the problem of our childlessness was. And to my greatest surprise I took in. It was then it downed on me that the problem of our childlessness was from my husband. I did not tell him in order not to hurt his  ego or complicated matters. I kept it to myself. 

Everyone rejoiced with me over the turn of events. My inlaws and husband became friendly again and started pampering me as before. I kept the secret to my self, praying that it will not be exposed.  Even when my close friends asked how I did it. I lied to them saying that it was the new man of God in our street I went to  that prayed for me. The poor man of God became popular over night as every woman seeking for the fruit of the womb started patronizing his church for Miracles 

When my baby was two years old, i looked for another man to sleep with me. And being a beautiful lady i did not find it difficult to get One. To avoid scandal in future i went for those outside the state i reside and who did not know my history.  I became pregnant again. That was how i gave birth to four children in a space of 6 years to four different men and my husband thinks he is their father. 

My problem now is that, of late i have been having a disturbing dream. In the dream we had travelled to Issele Mkpiteme, my husband's community for the yuletide. As we were alerting from the vehicle, a strange thunder struck and killed my four children and while i was mourning the death of my four children, the chief priest of the deity of my husband's community, who accused me of being responsible for the death of my children ordered that i should be arrested and lynched to death. 

If I had had this dream once, I would have dismissed it with a wave of hand, but I had it virtually everyday for two weeks. I became alarmed and consulted a native doctor for the interpretation. He told me that the deity of my husband's  community  is angry with me, because I committed Adultery.  And that i should  appease the deity by confessing to my husband and performing the cleasing ritual. He warned that if i failed to do this, I and my children would all die, an that  my death will be horrible and shameful.

i was not satisfied with this interpretation, I went to another person who repeated the same thing. Although l am not from Delta State and do not know much about this god, but from what i have been able to gather since my ordeal started, the deity does not spare any married woman who sleep with anoher man

What should i do?  should i confess to my husband and save my children from dying untimely death and myself from being disgraced  by the deity  of Issele Mkpiteme or should I ingnore the warning as superstitious belief .